 The ancient practice of yoga and its origins are from India and has often been misconstrued as a religious activity. I invite a closer look so that it becomes perceptible that yoga is a spiritual pursuit transcending religious boundaries, offering a pathway to personal growth and self-awareness. Here, we delve into the evidence supporting the argument that yoga is not a religious practice but a means for individuals to connect with their spiritual path. Yoga has frequently been misconstrued and misinterpreted as a religious pursuit. However, a deeper analysis divulges that yoga is a spiritual discipline beyond religious affiliations, providing a means for personal development and self-understanding. This article delves into the compelling evidence supporting the argument that yoga is not a religious practice but rather a method for individuals to connect with their spiritual journey, fortify their beliefs, and strengthen their inner selves.
Understanding Yoga Yoga originates from the Sanskrit word "yuj," which conveys the concept of union or connection; yoga encompasses an array of physical, mental, and lifestyle practices to achieve harmony between the body, mind, and spirit. The foundational text of yoga, the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali, outlines eight limbs of yoga. At its heart, the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali meticulously outlines the eight limbs of yoga. Encompasses ethical principles, physical postures, breath regulation, and meditation techniques. The ultimate aim of these practices is to nurture self-discipline, enhance mindfulness, and foster inner tranquility. Yoga and Spirituality Extensive research has consistently shown a strong and positive association between yoga and spirituality. A systematic review of empirical studies has revealed that engagement in yoga is linked to an amplification of spiritual aspirations, a heightened pursuit of wisdom and insight, a more holistic worldview, an enhanced sense of inner peace and purpose, strengthened faith, increased hope, greater compassion, and heightened inner happiness. These compelling findings strongly suggest that yoga catalyzes spiritual growth and self-awareness, emphasizing personal development over adherence to a specific religious doctrine one might already hold as truth (Csala et al., 2021). Yoga has evolved from a practice primarily reserved for ascetics and spiritual seekers to one accessible to householders—those who lead ordinary lives with families and societal responsibilities. Yoga as a Universal Practice One of the defining aspects of yoga is its inclusivity. Unlike religious practices often confined to specific cultural or doctrinal boundaries, yoga is open to people of all backgrounds and beliefs. It does not require adherence to any particular faith or religious rituals. Instead, yoga invites individuals to explore their spiritual path and develop a deeper connection with themselves and their world. This inclusive nature fosters a sense of acceptance and belonging, as it encourages individuals to utilize the necessary practices and leave behind what does not serve them. Academic Perspectives Multiple reputable academic sources have supported the perspective that yoga is more of a spiritual pursuit than a religious one. For example, a study released in Frontiers in Psychology underscores the positive relationship between yoga and spirituality, highlighting how regular practice can yield significant spiritual benefits (Csala et al., 2021). An article in the Journal of Counseling and Development also explores how yoga can enhance counselor wellness and efficacy by promoting holistic health and spiritual growth. (Maurya et al., 2019) Yoga and Religion: A Distinction While yoga has spiritual dimensions, it is crucial to distinguish it from religion. Religion typically involves a set of beliefs, rituals, and practices centered around a deity or deities. In contrast, yoga is a deeply personal practice focusing on self-discovery and inner transformation. It does not prescribe a specific belief system or require worship of any deity. Instead, yoga empowers individuals to cultivate mindfulness, compassion, and self-awareness, putting them in the driver's seat of their spiritual journey. Over time, the teachings of yoga began to adapt to the needs of householders. This shift is often attributed to the Bhakti movement and the teachings of various yogic texts, such as the Bhagavad Gita and the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali. These texts emphasized that spiritual growth and connection to the divine were not exclusive to renunciates but could be achieved by anyone, regardless of their lifestyle (Pfeiffer, 2014). The Bhagavad Gita, for example, teaches that one can attain spiritual liberation through devotion (bhakti), selfless action (karma), and knowledge (jnana), all of which can be practiced within the context of daily life. This inclusive approach made yoga accessible to householders, allowing them to integrate spiritual practices into everyday routines. Patanjali's Yoga Sutras also played a crucial role in this transformation. The eightfold path of yoga, outlined in the sutras, provides a comprehensive framework for spiritual development that includes ethical guidelines, physical postures (asanas), breath control (pranayama), and meditation. This holistic approach enables householders to cultivate a balanced and spiritually fulfilling life without withdrawing from their responsibilities. The Role of Meditation Various studies have demonstrated that meditation can substantially benefit mental well-being. It has been proven to lower stress, improve overall mental health, and foster a heightened inner peace and contentment. As a result, incorporating regular meditation into one's routine can impart a deep sense of comfort and serenity, ultimately leading to greater eudaimonic well-being. Yoga in Modern Society In contemporary society, yoga has gained popularity as a holistic practice that promotes physical, mental, and spiritual well-being. Yoga studios, wellness centers, and fitness clubs offer classes that cater to diverse populations, emphasizing the inclusive nature of yoga. This widespread acceptance of yoga as a secular practice underscores its distinction from religion and highlights its role in fostering personal growth and self-awareness. Yoga and Yoga Therapy Yoga therapy is an emerging and unique field that connects traditional yoga with integrative healthcare. Unlike group classes, yoga therapy is personalized to address specific health conditions, emotional well-being, and personal goals. It combines evidence-based techniques from yoga, psychology, and physiology to support healing and self-awareness. Yoga therapy often removes its pious aspects to make it accessible to everyone, regardless of their backgrounds, beliefs, or abilities. Therapists concentrate on practical techniques like breath awareness, mindful movement, relaxation, and meditation, designed to improve physical health and emotional balance and reduce stress. The focus is on how yoga practices influence an individual's life, transitioning from emphasizing dogma to emphasizing personal experience. Integrative healing in yoga therapy recognizes that the process goes beyond addressing the physical body. It also includes mental, emotional, and energetic aspects. During yoga therapy, clients can explore their inner landscape, uncovering patterns, emotions, and thought processes to foster self-awareness and personal growth. Yoga therapists also work with other healthcare professionals to create wellness plans that integrate various aspects of well-being. Yoga therapy encourages self-compassion by helping clients learn to listen to their bodies, honor the bodies they have today, and practice without judgment. It empowers individuals to be active in their healing and wholeness, allowing them to become their own healers instead of relying solely on external experts. The field of yoga therapy continues to evolve as research explores its effectiveness for various conditions like chronic pain, anxiety, depression, and trauma. Integrative health centers are increasingly incorporating yoga therapy alongside conventional medicine. Conclusion Yoga and yoga therapy are not religious but inner practices that offer a path to self-discovery and personal transformation. Yoga encourages individuals to explore their life path, cultivate mindfulness, and develop a deeper connection with themselves and the world around them through its various practices. Research supports the view that yoga enhances spiritual growth and well-being, making it a valuable practice for people of all backgrounds and beliefs. By understanding and embracing the true essence of yoga, we can appreciate its potential to enrich our lives and guide us on our inward journey. References Csala, B., Springinsfeld, C. M., & Köteles, F. (2021). The relationship between yoga and spirituality: A systematic review of empirical research. Frontiers in Psychology. https://doi.org/10.3389/fpsyg.2021.695939 2 Khalsa, S. B. S., & Cohen, L. (Eds.). (2016). The Principles and Practice of Yoga in Health Care. Handspring Publishing. Maurya, R. K., DeDiego, A. C., & Bruce, M. A. (2019). Application of Yoga as a Spiritual Practice to Enhance Counselor Wellness and Effectiveness. Journal of Counseling and Development. https://doi.org/10.1002/cvj.12144 3: Pfeiffer, A., (2014). A Brief History of Yoga. Yoga teacher training materials from 21st-century yoga on the mat Riordan, K. M., Simonsson, O., Frye, C., Vack, N. J., Sachs, J., Fitch, D., ... & Goldberg, S. B. (2024). How often should I meditate? A randomized trial examining the role of meditation frequency when total amount of meditation is held constant. Journal of Counseling Psychology, 71(2), 104. https://doi.org/10.1037/cou0000725 Iyengar, B. K. S. (1994). Light on Yoga. HarperCollins.
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 I wanted to discuss the power of daily rituals or sadhana and how they can help us navigate life's challenges with groundedness and resilience. I spent the last three weeks leading a day of Yoga Teacher Training and guiding others toward offering the gift of yoga on their own path. This reminded me of when I began my graduate program in Yoga Therapy at MUIH. The program underscored the significance of incorporating sadhana into our daily lives to stay centered, especially during the demanding grad school days. I couldn't help but reflect on the vast disparity between my MUIH experience and my previous stint in PT school. In the latter, the focus was solely on academic rigor, often at the expense of self-care. It was suggested that maintaining a clean home, a stocked fridge, or adequate sleep was downplayed in favor of relentless hard work and stress. Unfortunately, I believe this is a prevailing sentiment in many healthcare professions, and compassion fatigue is also common. My time at MUIH has been an eye-opener, emphasizing the need for self-care, or self-maintenance, as I like to call it, to best serve our clients and maintain a healing presence. I am immensely grateful for this perspective and am committed to integrating these ritual practices into my daily life beyond my time in school. Most recently, we had our most intensive clinic weekend, and our pre-clinic work was to have the tools we needed to have and maintain our sadhana during the intensity of the four-day weekend in place. If you're considering starting your sadhana, let me suggest beginning with something simple and easily accessible. Whether stepping outside for a few minutes, washing your hands mindfully, or simply taking a deep breath, these small rituals are within your reach. They can make a difference in how we approach each day. I'd love to hear from you. What rituals would you like to incorporate into your daily routine to enhance your wellness? Remember, these practices are accessible and can be blended into your routine, allowing you to take control of your well-being. Here are some additional Sadhanas you may try on your Yoga path:
-Valerie <3 In yoga philosophy, the Yama and Niyamas are moral guidelines and observances to lead a life. The lessons learned and the guidelines put forth are to remind and steer one towards a path of less suffering.
Suffering or dukkha can arise in many ways, including Raga or attachment. When learning these philosophies, I am reflecting that I misunderstood this concept of attachment to consumerism and material belongings. About five years ago, I decided to cultivate Aparigraha to heal through my desire to be a mom, even when the winds of time and change let me know that my body would no longer be that vessel towards this idea. I had always envisioned this for my life, and now I had to let it go. In some ways, after that, I also believed that I did my work with Aparigraha, and like a laundry list of things to do, I checked it off as done. I am thinking about this study and exploration again because I feel devastated at this wee hour of the night. After all, a year's worth of planning to work ahead has been thwarted. For my past year in the clinic, I know that there had to be a certain number of clients that needed to be seen and hours to complete to graduate. I knew the rules, and I tried to plan. Some rules I knew would be challenging: I was responsible for finding my clients for the year. I knew that when my clinic was in a virtual community, I could ask dear students and private yoga clients that I have worked with to have the opportunity to try yoga therapy with me. They would receive a session with me and more profound work towards their well-being from a therapeutic lens in Yoga, and I was very honored and had many willing to step up and be clients. I also knew the weeks in person would be a struggle, and they were; I had no connections or connections to those connected to people in Maryland to book a yoga therapy session with me. So, I took on extra clients when possible and relied on planning to book many in my virtual sessions. My hard work of booking ahead seemed to be concluding; in fact, I am less than twenty-four hours from the idea of completing the necessary hours so that I wouldn't jeopardize my graduation and have to rely on making sure someone I don't know might not show up, meaning I won't graduate on time. Less than twenty hours from that possibility, I could almost taste what that meant. I could envision moments of my last weekend with my lovely peers and excellent teachers in an easeful state, taking lots of pictures for memories and being able to put complete focus on my previous big projects that will be presented that weekend. I wanted my last weekend to be easy and breezy, not reliant on a last client or two that may or may not show up to jeopardize my big celebration of these accomplishments, and I will be ready to take on my plans and goals as a new graduate in a profession I love. Even just writing that last sentiment, I didn't realize how much weightedness I clung to on this plan. Which, unfortunately, can no longer be my plan. My last client of my last clinic day will not happen. They canceled on me within less than twenty-four hours of their session, so I could not fill their time slot, change their timing of informing me, and let me envision the July that was coming to fruition in my mind. But amidst this setback, I am determined to return to the rich lessons I hope to impart to my future clients and patients in yoga therapy. I must use the tools I already know to practice them myself and witness my attachment to these expectations. First, I acknowledge that Aparigraha is not something I will check off my list anytime soon; I will use the tools of understanding this guidance to avoid being so attached to things beyond my control. No one is at fault here. A year's worth of planning should have had less weight in my mind and heart. I still have the weekend in July to finish my session, and many of my peers will be providing their amazing gifts to other lucky souls seeking Yoga Therapy in July, too. I will breathe. While my lungs feel rigid with sadness and disbelief, I also have a client and a peer showing up tomorrow, and I want to show up for them, too. I continue to type, feel the clicks beneath my fingers, and think of my breath. I breathe deeper, smoother, more peaceful, and easier into my body. It's coming in, and so is the sense of sleepiness. I will practice gratitude for so many things; my ever supporting spouse, the clients who DID show up for me; I was able to practice developing as the best yoga therapist I can be. I also have one more weekend to fulfill my degree obligations, which means I can still accomplish my goals despite the challenge of an in-person client and this set-back. I am deeply grateful for the feedback and growth that I have had over this year; nothing has been wasted. It's just the plan is no longer the plan. There is a new plan, and I am thankful for the opportunities it brings. I will adhere to my self-maintenance practices to show up for myself and my clients tomorrow. Here are some ideas to try if you also want to practice this Yama in your life: 1. Regularly evaluate your attachments: Reflect on the things, ideas, or relationships you may be overly attached to. Are these attachments serving you well or causing unnecessary suffering? 2. Practice letting go: Find small opportunities to let go of attachments in your daily life. It could be decluttering your space, donating items you no longer need, or releasing emotional attachments to past experiences. 3. Embrace mindfulness: Cultivate present-moment awareness to appreciate what you have without constantly yearning for more. Practice gratitude for the abundance in your life. 4. Focus on experiences over possessions: Instead of accumulating material belongings, invest in experiences and relationships that bring fulfillment and joy. 5. Volunteer and give back: Engaging in acts of service and giving without expecting anything in return can help develop a sense of non-attachment. 6. Cultivate contentment: Recognize and appreciate the sufficiency of what you have rather than perpetually seeking more. Remember that embracing Aparigraha is an ongoing journey, and it's perfectly fine if progress comes in small increments. Always try kindness to yourself and others. -Valerie  In the Yoga Sutra 2.33, Patanjali says, "When negative thoughts present themselves, cultivate and think the opposite thoughts with feeling." "The power of discourse and re-framing has deeply inspired me. This quote has resonated in my mind lately, reminding me of the positive impact we can create through our words." As a current yoga therapist intern at MUIH, I've seen firsthand how transformative it can be to re-frame our negative thoughts and beliefs. It's not about denying reality or pretending everything is sunshine and rainbows. Instead, it's about acknowledging our challenges and focusing on the opportunities for growth and learning. As a member of Gen X, I've always appreciated the power of wit and sarcasm. It is almost effortless to deliver that sarcasm on demand more instant than ramen noodles in a cup. But I've also learned these coping mechanisms can only take us so far. To truly grow and evolve as individuals and as a society, we need to be willing to engage in meaningful dialogue and discourse. Of course, this is easier said than done. It's too easy to get bogged down in negativity or fall into a false positivity trap. ( I always think of the Legos song "Everything Is Awesome" regarding false positivity) But with practice and intention, we can learn to balance these two extremes. Whether conversing with a Yoga Therapy client or engaging in everyday discussions, we can adopt a receptive attitude and a desire to enrich our understanding. By altering our negative thoughts and attitudes, we can foster a spirit of curiosity and appreciation toward the world and those in it. We can create shared wisdom and deeper connections by embracing the power of re-framing and discourse. Let's see where it takes us. Some actions steps to consider: Mindfulness and positive thinking are important. However, sometimes, we may struggle to maintain a positive mindset when faced with challenging situations. Some work in re-framing through yoga therapy comes in. Re-framing is changing how we perceive a situation by shifting our focus from negative to positive. It is a powerful tool that can help us in our personal and professional lives by allowing us to see things more positively. Here are some actionable Yoga practices you can incorporate into your routine to work on re-framing more positively: 1. Gratitude Practice Start a gratitude practice. Take a few minutes each day to reflect on the things you are grateful for in your life. You can be thankful for anything, from the roof over your head to the people who support you. By focusing on the positive aspects of our lives, we can shift our mindset from one of lack to one of abundance. 2. Breathwork Breathwork is a powerful tool for calming the mind and reducing stress. When we perceive discourse to be conflict, it can be received as stress in our body, and our breath becomes shallow and rapid, which can lead to feelings of anxiety and overwhelm. Practicing deep, diaphragmatic breathing can slow down our heart rate and calm our nervous system. Simple breathing practices help us to regulate challenging situations with a clear and calm mind. 3. Meditation Meditation is another powerful tool for re-framing our thoughts and shifting our mindset. We can cultivate a sense of inner peace and calm by taking a few minutes each day to sit in silence and focus on our breath. Guided meditation can help us to approach challenging situations with a more positive and open mindset. 4. Positive Affirmations Positive affirmations are statements we repeat to reinforce positive beliefs and attitudes. By repeating positive affirmations regularly, we can reprogram our subconscious mind to focus on the positive aspects of our lives. Short practices with aphorisms can help us approach challenging situations with a more optimistic mindset. 5. Yoga Asana Yoga asana is a physical practice that can help us to release tension and stress from our bodies. When stressed or overwhelmed, our bodies tend to contract and tighten up. Practicing yoga asana can release this tension and create space in our bodies and minds. A yoga class can help us to approach challenging situations with a more open and relaxed mindset. Have you ever left a yoga class feeling better than when you came in? In addition to these practices, it is essential to honor good discourse and not see it purely as conflict. When we actively approach conversations with an open mind and a willingness to listen to different perspectives, we create an environment of mutual respect and understanding. This can help us to build stronger relationships and foster a sense of community. By incorporating practices such as gratitude, breathwork, meditation, positive affirmations, and yoga asana into our daily routines, we can cultivate a sense of inner peace and calm that will serve us well in all areas of our lives. Honoring reasonable discourse can build stronger relationships and create a more positive and supportive community. stay well, stay connected, remain authentic- -Valerie As a longtime yoga practitioner, I have practiced many styles and lineages of the ancient practice. However, there is one style that has impacted me deeply. I mean tissue, bone, and soul-deep. Which is why it has always been a regular part of my practice and teaching - Yin Yoga. Here are a few reasons why I love Yin Yoga: - Deep Relaxation: Yin Yoga is a meditative style of yoga that is slow-paced and creates an environment for deep relaxation and stress relief. The long-held poses allow you to sink into calmness and tranquility, a nice contrast for those who lead hectic lives. (Meyers, 2022) - Improved Flexibility: The long-held poses in Yin Yoga help to reach further flexibility and range of motion. Holding the postures for several minutes allows you to stretch more deeply into your muscles and tissues, leading to increased flexibility over time. (Clark et al., 2012) - Mindfulness Practice: Yin Yoga is a great way to practice mindfulness and meditation. The slow and steady pace of the practice allows you to be fully present in the moment and to tune out distractions from the outside world. (Hylander et al., 2017) - Stress Relieving: Yin Yoga is a great way to reduce stress and anxiety. Deep relaxation and mindfulness practices help calm the nervous system and reduce stress. (Lemay et al., 2021) - Increased Circulation: The long-held poses in Yin Yoga may increase and improve circulation and blood flow throughout the whole body. This can help to increase energy levels and reduce inflammation in the body. (Grilley et al., 2002) - Improved Joint Health: Yin Yoga can help to improve joint health and mobility. The long-held poses can help lubricate the joints and increase synovial fluid, improving joint health over time. (Norberg, 2014) - Balancing Practice: Yin Yoga is a great way to balance out a more active and dynamic yoga practice. Incorporating Yin Yoga into your routine can help balance the yang energy of more active practices and create a more well-rounded yoga practice. (Saraswati et al., 1998) - Deeper Connection with Self: The slow and meditative nature of Yin Yoga can help to deepen your connection with yourself and your inner wisdom. You can cultivate a more profound self-awareness and self-compassion by tuning into your body and breathing. (Powers, 2021) - Improved Sleep: Yin Yoga can be a great way to improve sleep quality. The practice's deep relaxation and stress-relieving benefits may also help support to fall asleep faster and stay asleep longer. (Shi, 2018) -Anyone can Benefit: Yin yoga is helpful if you have a tight and achy body, and it is helpful if you have a flexible body. One tool that makes this practice very universal is incorporating yoga props. They can support and stabilize when needed, and yoga props can deepen and support depth when available. In all, Yin Yoga is a beautiful and deeply nourishing yoga practice that may benefit anyone looking for relaxation, relief from stress, or better flexibility and mobility. I strongly recommend trying Yin Yoga, regardless of whether you're new or experienced. It may be the yoga practice you didn't know that you needed. References: Clark, B., & Powers, S. (2012). The complete guide to Yin yoga: The philosophy and practice of Yin yoga (p. 296). White Cloud Press. Grilley, P., & Grilley, S. (2002). Yin yoga. White Cloud Press. Hylander, F., Johansson, M., Daukantaitė, D., & Ruggeri, K. (2017). Yin yoga and mindfulness: a five week randomized controlled study evaluating the effects of the YOMI program on stress and worry. Anxiety, Stress, & Coping, 30(4), 365-378. Lemay, V., Hoolahan, J., & Buchanan, A. (2021). Impact of a Yin Yoga and meditation intervention on pharmacy faculty and student well-being. Journal of the American Pharmacists Association, 61(6), 703-708. Meyers, T. (2022). Yin Yoga Therapy and Mental Health: An Integrated Approach. Singing Dragon. Norberg, U. (2014). Yin Yoga: an individualized approach to balance, health, and whole self well-being. Simon and Schuster. Powers, S. (2021). Lit from Within: Yoga, Teachings, and Practices to Illuminate Our Inner Lives. Shambhala Publications. Saraswati, S. M., & Saraswati, S. S. (1998). Hatha Yoga Pradipika. Yoga Publications Trust. Shi, X. (2018). PO-019 Effects of Yin Yoga for Three Months on Insomnia in Menopausal Women. Exercise Biochemistry Review, 1(3).   I recently became a prescription glasses wearer. I knew for a while that I needed glasses for distance because of the little things I noticed. I also had perfect eyesight most of my life. I knew I would need a prescription when I finally had an appointment. I didn't even make an eye exam appointment; I went to one because Mark needed to get in earlier but forgot to cancel his original one, so they offered me his timeslot. In the world of eyeglasses, I have a light-strength prescription. But that light strength has changed my world. I have been in constant childlike wonder over all the simple things I could notice suddenly with my new glasses. Road signs- crystal clear as the beautiful fall leaves start to turn; I even get to see the sharpness of the crisp shape of the leaves; it has added a whole layer of beauty to my favorite season. Even TV watching, I have become more attuned to it. I hadn't realized how, in some ways, my world had dulled a bit, and I may have disengaged in its beauty for a while by not getting glasses. I have been thinking about how this new bright perspective has let me view a few other things in my life differently. If you read my last blog, I struggled through a few weeks in August to redo an exam for school. I was devasted and still have not energetically recovered from how much that experience ran me down. However, my new perspective is one thing that is starting to lift me back up. Work, school, and life- none of its demands will slow down anytime soon. I know it and hope to coast back into a flow with the routine instead of a consistent sense of being run down. I am not in burnout. Been there- this is not that. But I acknowledge that a break from it all is desired, but it is not possible at this time. One of the shifts that I have been thinking about is why I was so depleted from my experience, and this gal's new vibrant vision saw something on the horizon: I acknowledge that I am passionate about Yoga, being a Yoga teacher, and heading into the field of Yoga Therapy. Yoga has had such a momentous impact on my life and course that I put my heart into all I do in practice and my current pursuits in my Yoga Therapy program. With my new vision without and within, my takeaway is this. I can become the best yoga therapist through this program; it matters. I want to learn and share what I learned through assignments and writings, so when I turn in schoolwork and share my thoughts and how I digested the materials, I put out a piece of my heart like a piece of Art in the world for viewing. I want the receiver to love what I love. However, Art is up for interpretation, and I have the opportunity to learn from some of the best, most knowledgeable, and tenured Yoga Therapists. When I receive feedback for an exam, a project, or an assignment. I choose now to see that these esteemed yoga therapists are supporting me to fulfill my dreams and passion. Not to grade it harshly for rejective reasons, but genuinely to make growth and improvements for me. I also understand this has been in place in this program all along. But the change is I am seeing this through a different lens. To my professors, mentors, and clinic facility, I am deeply indebted and grateful to you. Is there something in your life that you can see differently? I would love to hear what you have changed your mind on.  Admittedly, August is usually one of my favorite months; it is filled with anniversary and birthday celebrations. I typically plot out my year and infuse all the good hopes, fortunes, and intentions I'd like for my next adventure around the sun. I set up lunch dates and connect with family and friends. This August was not that. I had an ominous dream on August 5, preparing me to receive some difficult news. I was ready to take a bit of a break this August and refresh in between a challenging end-of-year semester and before heading into my second year in clinical.
Unfortunately, as I write this, just days before I am hopeful of boarding a plane to begin my 4th semester of school, I am not sure if I have my place held for me in my program. You see, at my school, we have a pass/fail grading system, and this was true for my end-of-year comprehensive exam taken at the end of July. So, anything below 80% is a fail. I missed passing by a few points. Two days before my birthday, three days before my sweetie and I were going to take a short vacation, I learned that I either was out of my program or had to take an additional case study and redo my final comprehensive exam. So, no vacation, no break. I was devastated. One of the main reasons I am interested in becoming a Yoga Therapist is because one of our primary (and an oversimplified explanation) focus is learning our suffering and focusing on returning to our finding joy. I am a Gen X'er through and through, so if you read that last sentence and rolled your eyes, I get it. Finding authentic joy is not about false positivity or bypassing what you suffer and struggle with. It is weeding out the clutter of pains to find the gems already there. Like in a Yoga practice it is not about being perfect but about progress. It's about showing up on your mat, even when you don't feel like it. It's about listening to your body, honoring its limitations, and pushing it to its edge. It's about confronting your fears and insecurities and learning to let go of them. The truth is that most Yogis have struggled with their lives and practice at some point. They have experienced physical limitations, mental blocks, and emotional breakdowns. They have faced the frustration of not being able to do a pose, the fear of falling out of it, and the disappointment of not progressing as fast as they wanted to and failing a comp exam. But what gets them through is their determination and resilience. They don't give up when things get tough, they don't compare themselves to others, and they don't let their ego get in the way. They keep showing up, they keep practicing, and they keep learning. Knowing I had no time to hibernate to process and heal this awful situation, I faced this difficulty head-on. Some days it was writing a paper through sobs and snot; some days, writing and researching moved forward with piss and vinegar. So, I'd like to share a few ways I made it through the efforts. My husband had to call this out, but once I realized it was one of the gems that brought a slow and less painful way forward. I had to let go of my judgments of myself for what it was; failing wasn't a zero in this case; it was below what the university accepted to move forward. While I had moments where I continually felt like I didn't know anything and called myself some hurtful names, I had to bring myself back to what I knew and understood. There was no way to not accept this reality; I was in it, but I could choose how to be in it. The struggle is what makes yoga so transformative. We grow the most in moments of discomfort, challenge, and resistance. When we face our inner demons, limiting beliefs, and negative patterns, we can break free from them. When we push ourselves beyond our comfort zone, we discover new levels of strength, flexibility, and awareness. Next, I acknowledged that I needed to improve to move forward, but I didn't have much time for that growth, so I refocused my energy from what went wrong to noticing spaces for improvement. I broke down the enormity of the project into more bite-sized actions and religiously studied my APA formatting book like I was trying to fly in crow pose. With all my hurt and frustration around my situation, I had to acknowledge that help was offered if needed. As I was offered a second chance to complete this, I was also offered guidance for the process. I had a couple of opportunities for help with direction and refinement, and I took advantage of the provided resources. It was humbling and rewarding at the same time. In addition to the guidance offered, encouragement and support from peers and friends made all the difference; I was surrounded by incredible humans who cared and checked in on me. My school is not some weird competitive place that is thinning the heard; they genuinely want us as students to shine, and I felt that through our department chair and peer support through my cohort. When I had moments of being stuck and feeling a collapse, I did everything to try and pull from my toolbox- find my breath, be in the present, cry some more if I needed to, write one sentence at a time, and find an ear that will hear me. Even though I had to dedicate most of my time to this project to get it right, I gave myself mini breaks, one of which was to read for pleasure. The perfect book for the ideal time I started "The Storyteller" by David Grohl. I am no rockstar, but the thing I needed to remember came from this book. The person you may think had a straightforward track in life or made something happen so easily usually has several stories or years of struggle toward success. If it were easy, everyone would do it, and no one would appreciate it. I also had to take dance breaks; if a song popped into my head, it needed to be played, and I had to get up and dance. I don’t know if David Grohl practices yoga, but I have practiced yoga listening to Everlong, and that was an experience. It is the struggles that make the stories. To recap- - Practice self-compassion (Ahimsa): Treat yourself with kindness, understanding, and forgiveness. Don't beat yourself up for not being perfect or making mistakes. Instead, focus on what you're doing well and what you can improve. - Set realistic goals (Shila): Don't compare yourself to others or set high expectations. Instead, focus on your progress and set small, achievable goals to keep you motivated. - Listen to your body (Satya): Pay attention to how you feel and adjust your practice or mission accordingly. Don't push yourself too hard or ignore pain or discomfort. Instead, respect your and your body's limits and work with them. - Find a supportive community (Sangha): Surround yourself with people who inspire and encourage you. Join a yoga class, read a book, or an online group to connect with like-minded individuals. - Practice gratitude (Dhyana): Focus on what you have, not your lack. Be grateful for your body, mind, practice, and the people who support you. Cultivate a positive mindset and a sense of appreciation for life. The struggle is not a sign of weakness; it's a sign of strength. It's what makes you human. Embrace it, learn from it, and let it transform you. I often come back to the word strong- The root of Valerie “valens” means strength, bravery and powerful. If you are struggling with anything, I hope my strength and determination can support you. I share this for my own mental health and processing what is next for me, and I know your future success (Sankalpa) is also out there. Five days before I board a plane to meet with my cohort and finish my second year, I am still waiting to hear a final decision, and I wonder if my second attempt was successful or if I passed. I am hopeful and moving forward. I have begun reviewing my fall syllabus and what I need to do in case all goes well. I have also prepared myself for what I will do if the result differs from what I hope. Stay well – XOXO A playlist: “Send Somebody” Collin Hay “Charriots Rise” Lizzie West “What about us” Pink “Don’t Break” September 67 “Learn it all again tomorrow” Ben Harper “I won’t back down” Tom Petty “Best of you” Foo Fighters “People Everyday” Arrested Development “Rolling’” Better than Ezra “Greatest Day” Bowling for Soup “Ca Plane Pour Moi” Plastic Bertrand “Move Along” All American Rejects “In the Middle” Jimmy Eats World “I am enough” Heather Mae “Don’t stop Believin” Journey “I’m Alive” Michael Franti “Good Day” Nappy Roots “Let it Be” Beatles  I love fashion. My passion for fashion has ebbed and flowed throughout my life but is probably in flow at this juncture because I have found a place that carries items that fit me and does not charge extra. Some havens provide fabulous plus-size fashion, and I am grateful; this blog is because I had to venture away from my favorite local plus-size clothing shop and buy some scrubs. I had to purchase and find hunter-green scrubs for my clinical year in grad school for 23-24. I am so excited about my clinical year. However, my process of finding something that fit was challenging for a few reasons.
My usual clothing size is not my scrub size. (I had to go up one to three sizes to fit my curves.) Plus-size scrubs come in limited colors, and I needed a specific color. I love buying clothes, but I quickly learned scrubs are not made for bodies with curves. I had to purchase and return items several times and try several styles—many companies charge for return shipping and a restocking fee. Also, if you are a plus-size scrub wearer, you may know that buying scrubs can be a bit more costly than for your smaller colleagues ($3-7 per item). This is due to what is commonly known as the "Fat Tax." The Fat Tax is an additional cost that plus-size individuals are charged for clothing items that are larger in size (Greenleaf, 2019). This practice is not only unfair but can also be harmful to the self-esteem and confidence of those who are affected by it. The Fat Tax has been an issue in Westernized yoga culture and the fashion industry for years, with many brands charging more for plus-size clothing items than for their smaller counterparts or shaming and not extending size range (a brand that sounds like shoe-moo hemon). Retailers often justify this due to the additional fabric and materials needed to produce larger sizes. However, this reasoning needs to include that larger sizes are in higher demand and that the companies could easily absorb the additional costs or diversify them, like how they do that for an XS size through an XL size (Christel & Dunn, 2016). The same is true for scrubs. Plus-size scrubs are often more expensive than smaller sizes despite being made from the same materials and requiring the same amount of labor to produce. This can be frustrating for plus-size healthcare professionals who are already facing challenges in their field. The Fat Tax affects individuals' wallets and self-image. By charging more for larger sizes, retailers essentially tell plus-size individuals that their bodies are not as desirable or worthy as smaller ones. This can be detrimental to the mental health of individuals who, by their job title and need for scrubs, are trying to maintain and care for the health and well-being of others. The Fat Tax sends a message that plus-size individuals are not welcome in specific roles, making it difficult for them to feel confident and comfortable. As a student already trying to learn a field of study, it has brought forth more concern about my abilities in my role for the following year. One way to combat the Fat Tax is to shop from brands that do not charge extra for plus-size clothing items. If you are an organization requiring scrubs, offer your employees or students resources that offer equitably priced items. Some brands are committed to size inclusivity and provide a wide range of sizes at the same price. Do your research and be fierce about shopping around. By supporting these brands, we can send a message to retailers that the Fat Tax is unacceptable and that we demand size inclusivity in all areas of fashion and clothing, including scrubs. Through some deep diving on the internet and recommendations from friends, I did find a brand that did not charge extra for my size, came in hunter green, and was cut right, but I had to order directly from their site; most scrub uniform websites upcharge on the extended sizes – including the brand that I found. The Fat Tax is an unfair and toxic practice affecting individuals in many ways. As consumers, it is up to us to demand change and support brands committed to size inclusivity. Doing so can create a more equal and accepting world for all body types, including those who wear plus-size scrubs. References Christel, D. A., & Dunn, S. C. (2016). Average american women's clothing size: Comparing national health and nutritional examination surveys (1988–2010) to astm international misses & women's plus size clothing. International Journal of Fashion Design, Technology and Education, 10(2), 129–136. https://doi.org/10.1080/17543266.2016.1214291 Greenleaf, C. (2019, October 2). https://doi.org/10.1177/0887302X198785 I plan to share with you many more video links in the near future. do you need to take a 1 minute break for meditation in your day? try this practice.  About 2 weeks ago, I - like I imagine much of the rest of the world already out of sorts form being in any routine of normal, we have been in a pandemic-of COVID-19 and now the world is ever changing with a hope for justice. I couldn't help but notice a major divide in my social media of the response.
One thing I was surprised of in myself, is that I noticed how clearly I knew where I felt and stood on the issues.(I'll get to the surprise part of that in a moment) for me, black lives matter, and it's needed to be said and repeated and repeated some more because if it's not- would it matter to me as a white person? could I go on about my day and not have to say or think black lives matter? As I mentioned I am now aware of how many people in my circle choose to not need to say this and as a reaction choose to point out lives that have always mattered to them- matter to them more than entertaining what saying those other 3 words means. I am not an expert nor am I going to say this as succinct as I'd like to make the changes needed happen, but I had envisioned that I should build and offer a bridge. I know why and where we need to change as a country and I understand that I still need to listen and learn more to fully empathize with the experience of being a person of color in this life and in this world, and having been blind to it for many reasons for many years, I had imagined those that are still not quite valuing the importance of honoring humanity in all lives but not processing in their view of all lives as those black and brown friends that need to be included as such to say it. if it's even hard to read for you that black lives matter, why? did your politics or guts wrench by this? what did you feel in your body- pause breath. because- you are breathing and can still breath. embracing black lives matter does not devalue you or your loved ones or your believes in any way, just as one can never have enough love or compassion- it does not expire or sell out, there should be no consequence to say black lives matter if you didn't need to be aware that they did before. it's not a limitation it's an opportunity to expand your heart to more spaces. after being quite crushed of really not reaching anyone else that was on the side of the bridge I was hoping to help cross over- and quite frankly being told I was wrong on social media and to my face (well my zoom face) in Yoga, I decided to dig deeper within my heart- self maintenance practice, meditation, yoga, drinking water, and reading. I am also still listening and learning to be a better anti-racist. what I learned in my- self designated purpose to bridge the gap in thought is it made me feel miserable, many of my friends who also believe as I, took the time to relate and respond, but I was either deafeningly ignored by family and friends or shamed for asking for accountability, or muted. the heels of the one side were dug deeper, the other side wants the space to be heard. please speak- and I will listen. (any heel diggers? this paragraph is for you to either read or skip- always an invitation) so I decided to metaphorically burn the bridge I was trying to lead you to. I don't mean that I am severing relationships, I am going to try and meet those that I believe differently from a space of patience and kindness my yoga has helped me with this. I think you need that. because you seek the light of love by digging down into the earth beneath the soil only to be dug down so deep that when you look up very little light shines in and it's such a sliver that you have to grasp for that small little bit and cling to it tightly- I hold space for you- my light and my love is big enough to hear and do my best to hold that space for you and still love you. Understand that does not mean I will never speak of these things you choose not to hear of. If you engage me, respectfully understand that saying what you have to say and then shutting down the conversation will not abide. we will converse- I will hear you- do you hear me, will you un-bury your ears to listen. pause. breath. I will no longer allow a platform monologue - expect a conversation. --------------------------------------------------------------------- I digress- so I came across and was reminded of a tool that I learned about in yoga training. the Enneagram. if you are unfamiliar, I will try and enlighten you. the Enneagram plots out 9 personality types. As fun as it is to discover the type you are, and it is really fun to take the test and discover the things that feel spot on for you. unlike your typically buzzfeed quiz, or horoscope reading, the Enneagram is not about finding your type and then being done with it or forming a judgment around it. the Enneagram is a way to figure out how you navigate the world. and in times of uncertainty this type in you acts as your protective shield (armor or maybe a mask) as you work your way in life. so in my review of my type and my way to process- my enneagram bingo card became full in the ways that I was reacting and responding and posting. I will get back to my surprise to how I feel about black lives matter- my surprise is, and if you have ever had to coordinate meeting me in real life- ask me where I want to go- and in my typical enneagram type- I will not make this decision well- I will want what you want and that is the truth. I want everyone to be happy, and then I believe I will be happy. so my surprise is that I didn't see someone disagreeing with my plight of black lives matter as an option. it just is, this is not something that I will back down from or complacently agree with you because you think differently. I am horrible at making decisions or being firm on my opinions but this time. I am firm- make no mistake - every fiber of my being will blast through my armor of protection to be agreeable with you this time. that's surprising- I imagine that's why maybe some of those said on my platform were so surprised too. so my work is not done, but acknowledging that we all have our armor or mask to shield us, this is how we navigate. I am much clearer on how I will be on my quest to seek justice for black lives matter. my armor was sorting out how to be harmonious - but I don't think in our society anyone is singing kum bah yah right now. If there was a way to say that there is unity is do we not all have our protective shields up right now? how can we navigate those walls or protection to get to a heart to heart conversation. a few resources if you would like to dive into the Enneagram or revisit it yourself- feel free to comment below what is your type? to test, learn more and find your type: https://millennial-grind.com/top-10-best-enneagram-tests/ https://tests.enneagraminstitute.com/ if you know your type a book to check out: The Honest Enneagram by Sarajane Case https://www.alibris.com/booksearch?title=honest+enneagram&mtype=B The Enneagram for Relationships by Ashton Whitmoyer-Ober https://www.alibris.com/booksearch?keyword=The+Enneagram+for+Relationships%3A+Transform+Your+Connections+with+Friends%2C+Family%2C+Colleagues%2C+and+in+Love&mtype=B&hs.x=0&hs.y=0 An incredible conversation about how the Enneargram and social justice can play a part: this was recorded before March but couldn't be more relevant now. Power & Vulnerability - https://www.instagram.com/tv/CA5S6cDgvlE/?hl=en |
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